Forget about laziness. When people don't like themselves, it's a hell for them to show them up. When people have no goal in their lives, they lack of motivation to live.
I also wonder many times, what happened. " Am I a lazybones? bc I can't get up from this bed. I only want to curl myself in this blanket. I wished I was died and didn't get up.
Luckily, my last T taught me to appreciate me and being compassionate with me.