I feel for you LelouchLamperouge, loving ones self is a difficult thing for me too.

I try to tell myself often that I am beautiful, worthy of being loved, etc, or to praise myself for what I've done (yay, you got all the dishes done, or yay you got a good performance review at work)... but it's like I just can't believe myself. No matter how many times hubby tells me I'm beautiful I just can't seem to feel it for myself.

I make a conscious effort to not talk down to myself (telling myself I'm stupid, fat, unworthy, etc.) But it still feels like I'm lying to myself when I try to positive talk myself up... so it's a hard place to be.

The one thing that does help is evaluating motivations when I am tempted to not believe a compliment someone gives me. Like, what reason would my husband have to lie to be when he tells me he thinks I'm beautiful? If he didn't like me, and how I look, he wouldn't have married me. So I try to just accept that HE thinks I'm beautiful, and believe that, even if I don't feel beautiful myself. (if that makes sense...)