Hugs! I know it is hard when you feel there is no one to talk to, and I hope this forum helps to give you some support like it has for me. You can feel free to send me a message anytime if you want to talk.

I totally know what you mean about motivation - it's like the initial inertia needed to get up and get going (to do whatever, laundry, housework, shower, etc) is just so hard to overcome. I don't have any magic answers for you, except to say keep trying. Some days will be better than others, but you just keep doing the best you can. Try to remember past sucesses with getting up and getting things going when you're feeling glued to the couch, and remind yourself that you have been able to overcome in the past, and you can overcome in the present too. I'm sure user Vital will come on here at some point and recommend Snap club for you. I've had mixed results with this, but it can be helpful I think.

I also just want to say that it's your body and your decision - don't let anyone who thinks they're 'holier than thou' put you down for your decision to end the pregnancy. You did what you felt was right, what was needed in your life, and there is nothing wrong with that. In your position, I would have done the same thing. If and when you are ready, and when you are with a partner who will support you, you can get pregnant again and enjoy raising a child together. Or you can buck the system and go to the clinic and get artificially inseminated by an anonymous donor. Nothing says you have to be in a relationship to have a baby! But please don't be in a rush to start a family - you're still young yet, and a baby is never a solution to a problem (depression, lonliness, etc.) My mother had me to "fix" her life, and trust me when I tell you that is a horrible way to spend a childhood.

Anyway, I just want to offer you support and let you know you're not alone. Hugs.