Recently I noticed how I read into what people say b/c sometimes I get judged. Most of the time others just want to help so I read too much into it and end up being wrong. I think the problem stems from those .01% of the times when I'm right and so I obsess about it. I wish I could just let it go. I try to look for guidance on how to ignore negative thoughts and focus on me but always end up back in the same place again. How can I show this person I'm trying my best? Why do they think so poorly of me when they don't even know me? But really it should be more like Why do I let these negative things affect me so much? or How can I stop worrying about what everyone thinks about me all the time? Things used to be a lot more simple when I was "on track" and doing what I was supposed to. Now that I struggle those voices seem louder than before.

"Why are you asking for help, you're an adult?"
"Don't make excuses just do it."
And so on.

All I want is for people to see things from my view but that's impossible. I wish things could be like they were and I'm happy again. Thx everyone! I may have more later but I'm pretty drained right now.