Maybe I don't know how to work the forums correctly or maybe I'm just not all that good with connecting with people even online but a lot of people told me that I should find people who listen and care on this site and I couldn't seem to find in real life situations but I haven't. No one finds my words of any comfort and when I post, no one feels moved enough to share back with me. I am truly alone in this awful world. For better yet, this awful room on this awful couch that I'm confound to. I'm not always so pessimistic but it's hard not to be when I can't fit in with people feel like they don't fit in. This is not the place for me afterall.