Dear T,

Wednesday in our session I felt terrible (and also the days/weeks before our session). I cried. I don't think I've cried like that in front of you ever before. The 3 days after and today I felt kind of alright. What is this? Most days I feel bad, full of selfhate. And then there are a few days I kind of feel alright. But it are just a few days. And it doesn't happen often. But this has happen before. Are the medication finally working. Or what? Is frustrating. Because the last time I felt alright for 2-3 days, I felt really bad again after those days. I'm so tired of this.