I can't stop thinking about what would happen if you dropped me or abandoned me. I'm definitely attached to you but I don't want to bring it up, at least not directly...I want you to tell me you won't leave. I don't want to need you but I feel like I do right now. I hope I can get to a point soon where I don't feel that way but for now I guess I just have to accept it and have the awareness that those feelings are there.

I'm starting to think that I should tell you this when I see you in a couple of days.