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Originally Posted by Wander
I am Bipolar 1 but not due to typical full blown manic episodes on their own but because I fall into MIXED states (hypo/mania and major depression at the same time). My mixed states include full mania and they are hell due to the extremely low mood with extremely agitated states, rapid thoughts, less sleep and sucidal ideation. Basically I am wild and out of control but also depressed. Have you ever had anything like that? It is odd your doc would label you as bipolar 2 without any sign of a manic episode. Good thing to bring up when you see them next. I am sure he/she has their reasons.
There is an adjustment period of grief, confusion and concern once diagnosed but it is a good thing as now treatment can begin and hopefully you will find relief from your symptoms.
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Hello there!
I'm actually not sure about what's going on with me. I'm starting to think that maybe I don't really know the difference between mania and hypomania. I still refer to what I feel as "feeling up" cause that's what I'm used to. I do know that while I went through my 18 month depression not too long ago, I did feel "up" sometimes and in a really bad way. I'd get agitated, irritated, aggressive, and I thought
a lot about suicide. But then is that a different thing? My boyfriend was very close to leaving me. In fact, I don't know how he stayed. I'd stay up sometimes till 6am screaming and pacing around the house, wanting to destroy everything and wanting hit him simply because he was there. It still breaks my heart when I remember those nights. It took everything in me to not hit him. I'd pack my bags, text my friend asking if I could stay with her for a while and all or no reason. He'd just sit on the floor against the door to stop me from leaving the house. And then usually by the next day, like and abusive spouse, I'd apologize and try to make it up to him. I would explain that it's not who I am and that he knows me but I just don't know what happened. That is something that happened often while I was going through the depression. To me being that way towards anyone, let alone somebody I love, is worse than my worst depression or anything else I've ever felt or been through. So then is that considered mania?