I self-harm. But now I can't because prom is next Saturday and my friend is forcing me to go... There's no way out of going as she is buying my ticket and bought me a mask for the dance. I need to cope right now, or else I will go to a very bad place. The moment I try to stop coping is the moment I plummet and become very suicidal, and now that my only working coping skill is gone this week, I feel like I am going to explode. I am already becoming more angry with my family and I feel so bad for being so cruel. They don't deserve me yelling at them for doing nothing. They care so much and I am just such an evil person. I just don't want to do this anymore. I don't want to live this stupid live anymore.