It's alright. I know exactly how hard it is to go through everything especially when you feel like you're literally by yourself. I'm by no means a lot better now than before and I'm continuously struggling but I try to push forward and take it one day and one step at a time...

Don't forget. If you don't feel comfortable with your T, outright tell your T how you feel or just immediately find a new one. It might be hard sometimes to find a good one that fits but once you do, it feels like a huge weight has been lifted. It's always in your best interest and will benefit you in the long run to find a T that you are comfortable with and can trust. And sometimes it will just take time to build that trust in the beginning.

Hope the best for you and things start to get better for you. Everyone has always been here for me whenever I wrote on here and I've received a lot of support from PC so it means a lot to me too. Always feel free to post if you feel like you need to write/share something on the forums, there are a lot of great people who support each other here. Let us know what happens with any updates!