so i discovered that the reason for my past 17 years of severe depression was porn addiction

but..its too late

i am already divorced twice with a boy from the first marriage..the second divorce wasn't too long ago..

i screwed up every work/education opportunity i was given..and i currently work a lousy low pay job that i don't like

i lost 17 hears of my life destroying my life and the life of people around me

ok..so

what good does it do if i realized the cause too late?

if you where me..what would you do? how would you move on with your life? whats the point of moving on????????

what is left for me to do?

is this god's way of giving me the finger?