hi luckieduckie
i think it will be difficult to connect to others as long as you are depressed. i was depressed for thirty years and never sought treatment and my life was miserable. i had no hope. i finally got help when i knew i was going to wind up dead. the right antidepressants and right therapy at the right time completely turned my life around. i regret not doing something about it sooner as i feel i wasted much of my life as things turned around so quickly with treatment. i developed a whole new outlook upon life. i was able to build my self esteem and feel like a success. welcome to psych central. you will find we have several forums where you can post about your concerns and receive feedback from other members. you will get a lot of support here. again, welcome