im in this weird kind of apathetic state towards cutting. i havent in quite a long time, i dont remember the last time i did, but it's not because i actively stopped, i just didnt feel like it. i've been really depressed lately and i've been thinking about it and i would plan to do it but then id just get too lazy/apathetic/depressed to actually do it. i dont know if that is a good sign or a bad one [not cutting, but not because i dont want too, but because im too apathetic]. same with crying, i cant remember the last time i cried and i kind of think it would be nice to just cry, but im otherwise totally apathetic about it so i cant just cry. im not really sure whats going on.