im in love with my best friend who has a boyfriend and they are very much in love and all that %#@&#! [which is a WHOLE other story]. so anyway, im convinced that no one will ever like me like that [because no one ever does], and that's how it is. but then apparently one of my friends actually does like me. i know this because my best friend suspected, so she talked to him. now, if he asked me out, my 1st thought is that id say yes, because this never happens to me [no, im serious, ive been single my whole life, ive only been asked out like once]. but then my second thought was: "ok, so if he asks me out and i say yes, then what? im not in love with him. i dont know if it'll work. but i wont know if i dont try. and it's practically a chance of a lifetime for me. but i dont want to hurt him. but i have zero chance with the one im in love with". so im kinda confused a little. i dont know. i just kind of need to vent a little. i cant talk to anyone else about it in detail really.