IDM,
Remember though we are saying "another" visit, it has been better.......better does exist, maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow........but it can/has got better. And in time, with help/support maybe "better" can start lasting for longer, and longer, and longer.........
And now, in the fight, it it's back, just choose your "battles", hey?? e.g. if you're exhausted (which is completely understandable ), make time where you're not keeping trying to fight it........where you can "relax", where you can do less, where you can drop some of the expectations you or others have on yourself and make time where you can "let those feelings out"/express them. We're here for you as much as we can be in this, you're not having to do it alone
But hey (!!) you querying how much fight you've got???!!!! Come on!!! It's always been so clear that you've got so much more fight than you think. You are pretty amazing you know!!!
Although I do know it can be far from easy........so just try to lean on us for support when you need to hey??!! Again.....we're here for you
Alison