ab1018
A lot of major losses in a short time. It takes time and energy to move through those kinds of things.
Seeing oneself as a victim is a primary reason for therapy. It is precisely why I'm there. Here's a site I like that talks some about it in the question & answer section:
www.guidetopsychology.com
My moods, too, will soar or plunge depending on things outside of me. For example, if a person I write to regularly on another site posts and I interpret the post to be distant (so it means she is sick of me, wants to be rid of me, etc) my mood can plunge immediately. Little things all day make my moods rise and fall and it's exhausting. Depression is the result of my victim thinking and I hope therapy will help me with that.
I really really like what mouse said about living life alongside our problems instead of underneath them. I often wonder how others do that. I tend to hide and isolate and so I'm in awe at those who have relationships and keep moving and setting and reaching goals.. in spite of..
ab1018 you have had a lot of devastating things happen in a short time. It isn't bad luck or the way your life will always be.

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