Hi Fuzzy, I'm really sorry you're feeling this way, but glad you feel able to tell us about it at least
And if "out there" is feeling tough for you, why not hang with us a bit.........it sounds like you need some understanding, someone to care, someone to be there for you/to offer support, and we can definitely offer you that because you deserve it so much.
We absolutely aren't going to give up on you (not a chance!!!) so please don't go giving up on yourself, you are such a amazing person!!!
And, as ever, if you want to talk..........

Alison