Wow!!! Your name is so fitting LuckyDuckie!!!! Psych Central is a great place to come and let it all out. I'm so excited you're here and reading posts from others who are or have been right where you are. Yes, treat that depression. It makes all the difference in the world. I know, I have it!!!! Depression is an illness, lack of serotonin in the brain. Meds will help. I hope you start feeling better soon. Please keep us posted on your progress. Get to a p-doc soon and start living your life!!!