Yes, I'm seeing a therapist, but my relationship with her is still new. She knows I've relapsed though. She said that since I don't seem to want to let go of it yet, she wont push me to stop yet. Plus, if I tell her anything about feeling like I'm breaking down, she'll probably try to send me to a hospital again and I just need to get through two more weeks of school. After six years of cutting and self harming since I was three, and trying to stop and find different ways to cope, I haven't really found anything yet. Thank you for the ideas though. It's to the point that I don't use SI for negative feelings, I just have it in my routine. I'm willing to change if I can find something that gives me the feeling that SI does, but so far, nothing. I just hope I can get through this week without it.