I feel like I keep screwing up and making things worse. I hope it's all in my head. Right now I'm hurting mentally, dentally and bodily. And i overate. And last night I kept feeling like something was trying to burble up from the depths of my consciousness. It was not a pleasant sensation and it kept me awake until almost 7 this morning. Even with diazepam. What do I do? I've been trying for so long now. I feel myself shutting down. Letting things go. Giving up. Please tell me things will get better. I've had several years now of depression and anhedonia. About the only time I feel better is during my appointments.