Hi everyone,

first off, thank you for taking the time to read this. I am going through a lot right now and I just really need to vent. I am hoping that by getting this out of me it will help me out. If you have any thoughts, comments, ideas, jokes...anything would help.

My father is a very sick man. He has been on dialysis for 7 years and is now starting to have a lot of troubles with his heart. Last week he was unable to be dialyzed 3 times due to his heart rate being too high and his blood pressure being too low. He is hospitalized and they found fluid in his lung sack (between the outside of the lung and inside the ribs). So he had a procedure to put in a tube that will drain it. The ct scan has shown that the drain is doing it's job so he will most likely not need surgery past that which is a good thing. Still not any further with his heart thing. (If you know about dialysis you should know that out of 6 days which he would have had 4 dialysis sessions, he was only dialyzed 2 times).
On top of that he is about 2 + hours away from me which i know in the grand scheme of the world it isn't that far but it means i can't get there as much as I want to be.

My mother found out on Saturday night that she has a torn meniscus in her knee. She is off work for the week and starting physic soon. She has to drive an hour to see my dad in the hospital everyday and then go home and let the dog out in the backyard cause she can't take her for a walk. I feel so upset that I can't drop everything and be up there to help out!

I am moving by the end of May and I still don't know where I am moving to. Also, my current apartment happens to have disgusting cockroaches so i have the added stress of cleaning every single possession before i pack it up and can't let it spend too much time in the apt once it is packed.

I also am so ready to have a baby! I don't have a man so thinking of using a sperm bank but scared of all of the things that could go wrong and all of the possible stereotypes of using a sperm bank.

Anyways,

Thank you so much for listening!!!!