This is one drag of an illness, isn't it? I totally relate to what you wrote. I see things written about how we can live such great lives with Bipolar yadda yadda yadda, but when it comes right down to it, this life is damn hard.
The med game is tiresome, and half the time doesn't work. And the up and down of the moods is guaranteed to wear you out long before your expiration date.
Yeah, I hear ya!