Thanks! And, sorry that your report has been such a nightmare to get together. It doesn't sound like it's your fault... that vendor that you described sounds seriously incompetent... like almost worth complaining to her boss about, if that's possible. Though, if the company has decided to not pursue this system anymore, it's probably not worth it, since you're not buying anything anyway. But seriously, geez! Could she have made your job any harder?!?!

It sucks that it took so long to put together, but sometimes it takes longer when you have to really tighten it up and get it down to just a few pages... all the editing and work spent summarizing is a pain. Easier to just dump everything in as many pages as it takes (like I did!) - but obviously that doesn't work for CEOs that are super busy and have short attention spans!

Would it help next time to ask them upfront what they're looking to spend? Would they even be able to answer, or do you think they really have no clue, and that this was just expensive enough that it was clearly out of their range?

I'm so sorry that you didn't get driving licenses either, and got yelled at! Isn't that just *insane*. Cars are huge, heavy, and dangerous - I can't wrap my head around the amount of pure idiocy it takes to put a teen/young adult in one, and basically say, "Good luck!" Ha - and then to complain that they can't drive, well... yeah, duh. I wonder why that is?!

That's a nice thought that there was something poetic about my sister crossing the street without checking for traffic, but seriously, this was a HUGE busy downtown area, and I nearly had a heart attack when she told me. Thankfully, when she told me, she had already moved away and gotten considerably better. But gosh... it sends shivers down my back!

Thanks for the support around therapy! Yeah, I don't know what I'm going to do. I'm actually doing a little better tonight... I picked up some random multivitamins, and crazy as it sounds, they're helping! It's so subtle, but I feel like they're making it a bit easier to avoid spending the whole day in bed. I'm still getting my walking routine back in order, got to talk to my friend who moved (who is such a sweetie, she wanted to call after I wrote and told her how depressed and miserable I was!), and even managed to make it out to a meetup for boardgames tonight (fun, but a little exhausting).

All good stuff, but gosh, the therapy stuff... I just don't know. I so much want to work through all my crap, but I'm starting to wonder if that's even possible. I'm *really far* from addressing any of it, I struggle with just being there.

Oh well, so it goes. Are you going to get to do anything fun tomorrow/Tuesday? Definitely do NOT check your work email tomorrow! They know that you're a contractor working part-time, don't let them get used to having 24x7 access to you, or it will never get better! Hopefully you get some (more?) nice weather, and can get out and enjoy it!