I'd love to, but right now I'm not financially stable, so it's really a 'beggars can't be choosers' situation.

She never confronted me, and I've been doing a bit better with not purging lately, but my anxiety level after eating is so high, I know it's just a matter of time before I slip up again.

I've begun the process of finding a therapist, but let's be honest here, I've promised myself over and over again that I'm going to get help, but every time I end up either chickening out, or convincing myself that since I'm overweight, I don't really have an eating disorder anymore.