We have lost both parents and no longer speak to the brother. All the family surrounding them is gone. The family home has been put up for sale. There were good times there...a secret hiding place, my tree, my special bench....now it's all gone. I can't remember it without feeling deep sadness and pain. Some inside don't know all is gone. ...or that the mother is dead. Everything we thought we had is gone, forever. There is nothing left. the memories are gone...the brief security is gone.... it's as though we never existed in the first place. Maybe we're all gone too...

We're blank...and numb