I would definitely like to start going more places, including the group.

So I had an argument with the guy. I got mad at him because I told him I'm going through a difficult time and I'm not sure if I want us to be friends or date, and that I needed some time to think. His response was "whatever, I'll live" which upset me so we had an argument. I have gone back and fourth about where I want this to go many times because I just don't know. Anyways, he called me a "crazy person" which really upset me, so I blocked him/deleted his phone number etc. I told him today that I needed a break to think about this, and he said ok.

Part of me really hopes that during the time I don't talk to him I realize I don't need him and don't want this to go any further, yet I still like him. I even feel unusual not talking to him in a day because it's like I'm dependent on our conversations to feel normal. And yet I'm unhappy with this. I've been mad at him so often and we've fought a lot over the past few months. I can't believe I'm in a situation like this- I never would have done this a couple of years ago. I wouldn't have spoken to him a couple of years ago, and this whole situation makes me feel bad at times, yet I struggle to walk away.

Part of me wants to meet him, part of me wants this to end. I should know better because I could probably be in a relationship with someone different who I'd be better with, but just stopping this is hard. I've never been through that before. And some of his questions have been so inappropriate too (I don't know if he realizes this or not) like asking me if I would "come visit him" in his hotel room if he comes to visit me. Does anyone think that is very inappropriate to expect on a first meeting? He says it's because he "feels like he knows me already." Why am I putting up with stuff like that? That's not right at all. I haven't been a very nice person but I don't ask questions like that. I'm way smarter than this. I feel like an idiot right now though.