I'm so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine how hard it must be for you. I know when I lost my mother it took quite a bit of time for me to get over the initial shock. She was my best friend, too. It takes time to get through the grieving process. Meanwhile take care of yourself.
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Bipolar I, Depression, GAD Meds: Zoloft, Zyprexa, Ritalin
"Each morning we are born again. What we do today is what matters most." -Buddha