opinion question for you all: how do you figure out if you need more therapy or less?

I'm going through a lot of stress lately, and my t has been offering extra sessions when she has the availability. If I take the extra sessions, it's helpful in allowing me to get through the week a little easier. At the same time, the weeks she doesn't have availability feel really long and difficult. I don't want to get too dependant on extra sessions, but our time together is limited so I want to cover as much as possible...

I also struggle a lot with accepting the extra sessions when she offers them because I feel like I'm taking too much of her time (I have not asked for them, but called back and later accepted them after initially not being able to accept them in person. she's taken this in stride).

This is the first time I've been so conflicted about accepting extra support. For a long time, I would refuse anything additional and refuse to reach out even if things were getting out of hand for me outside of session. Then (maybe 5 years ago), my T at the time finally convinced me to ask for more help when needed. Now I feel like I'm back to not wanting any extra support because I again feel like I am not supposed to ask for anything other than what was initially offered (a bit of a bg on current moment, I'm in the middle of some messy transference with T where I react to her like I did to my f.o.o. They would have offered something "extra" as a test. If I took it, I would get in trouble for daring to think I was worthy of anything other than what was originally established as ok. I'm pretty sure T is not doing the same thing, but that fear is there. T is aware of transference, but I have not brought this up yet b/c I don't know how to voice it in the moment. I just freeze around the topic of the next appointment)...

With or without the extra sessions in a week, I cope however I cope, it's just a bit easeier with the extra sessions. I don't want to "burn T out" on me by being too annoying and needy.

I know I should bring this up with T. I will try again today if I can... Just looking for opinions and outside perspectives though.

Thanks.