(((ThisWayOut)))

I think it's always hard, with lots of things (not just T) to figure out when we need more versus less. I struggle with this with things like... when I've hurt my back or ankle, when do things need rest ("do less") and when do they need physical activity ("do more") to heal. It always feels like such a confusing jumble, and with emotional things, I think it's 100x as confusing.

If you accept extra sessions, do they count against your limit with this T? Is there any concern that by taking extra sessions now, you won't have them in the future? Just checking...

If that's not an issue, I do think you should take them! You've got *so much* going on, and you have such a long history of getting started with Ts, but then not being able to finish (due to circumstances outside of your control). That seems like a really really painful to address things that are already full of pain. Like... being stuck in the first moment of therapy. Yikes. I think if you can get extra sessions and get some support with that, or perhaps even make a little more progress towards getting some of your stuff processed and bandaged up (so to speak), that would be amazing, and a real gift to yourself.

The transference reaction honestly sounds awful, I'm so sorry. If there's any way you can let your T know what's going on... even if you have to write it out... it might help her understand why you're having so much anxiety and stress around extra sessions.

(((ThisWayOut)))