I am not as old as u and have only wasted about 10yrs of my life so far but the reason for me reporting is because of the morning anxiety issue that u discussed earlier.i have the same thing so bad that when I wake up its like a ton of bricks hitting me in the chest.i have actually puked from it..i immediately have to reach for my pills and take some to come back to what I guess u might call normal.and then the craziness in my head tells me a hundred different ideas that are really going to further ruin my life.i joined here to try and express and get feedback and meet others with the same problem ..maybe just maybe this will help u for a day..i take nuerontin for my anxiety and its the only thing that helps me out in the mornings.dont do it..just for today man