Sorry to bump an older topic but I didn't want to create a new one, I remembered there was one about it already.

I'm really struggling with this right now. I feel like I've messed up so much in my life already. Maybe if I were stronger I could still work my butt off and turn things around, but I'm weak. And I'm currently going through another depressed phase; it's taking all my effort to keep functioning and not hide under the covers and cry all day.
I need a job, soon, but it's so hard to find something. I studied something quite specific where there is very little in terms of full-time jobs, more freelance stuff and I'm not cut out for that. I'm trying to change direction but everywhere I run into the "I don't have the experience" Maybe if I could act super confident and just bluff my way through an interview, I'd have a chance. I've already wasted so much time with not having a job - took me two years to find something after uni because I was too scared of rejection to even apply anywhere. I never had a job in high school or uni. And now I'm wasting time being depressed again instead of moving forward.

Then there's the not making any friends when I had the chance. It gets harder the older you get. People already have their lives and their friends. I ruined two important friendships and now I'm left with no one.

I've missed so much in life already and I want to catch up, but I feel like not trying harder the past is biting me in the *** now.