Thank you guys for the quick responses. I can leave for a while but I really hate the idea of uprooting myself. I guess I can just try it and see how things go.

I am just so hurt and disappointed that he'd actually say something so very evil - "I will destroy you?" Where the heck does that come from. I have been livid before and haven't said that to him.

In fact, I have down right despised someone before and wouldn't think to ever say that. It is so ominous and threatening. Bare in mind this is the same man I posted about who has the crazy ex...I just never thought our problems would get to the point where he'd be saying things like this to me.

I am asking for maturity on his end by offering couples counseling as well as individual therapy for both of us. He has made no effort do that so I can't help be think he doesn't really want to fix things.

The part about all this that is really making me sick is that just yesterday I felt so completely satisfied and happy with where our relationship was. It makes this all hurt so much to be so happy and then have the rug yanked from under my feet.

Yeah he is sober now but he did just check out on me for two months and I hated the self medicating that he was doing. I tried to talk to him about it and he would shut me down. I tried to write to him via email and he just ignored it. He lashed out when he was angry and soI pretty much thought the relationship was over on his end but that he just didn't want to tell me so he was making it so hellish that I would have to be the one to leave.

I don't know how to turn off the love I feel but I also don't know how to live with things the way they are.