Hello-- I'm new here. My biggest problem is that I am overwhelmingly lonely; that is owing to the fact that I am "the wrong religion" for the community I live in.
I am not allowed in some stores/buildings and even when I am allowed inside the business often times no one will wait on me. I know this is sort of illegal, but when I contacted the local prosecuting attorney's office, he said it was a civil matter not a criminal one, so I would have to hire an attorney and file a civil suit if I wanted to be able to use those stores. I don't have that kind of money, so I end up doing my shopping out of state where no one knows me.
At work no matter what I say, it will be turned against me. If I tell a co-worker their new hair-cut looks good they will get mad and say, "So you're saying my hair looked like ***** before!!!" The only reason I have been able to keep my job is because the company is based is liberal California and the big boss doesn't care what religion I am, only that I do my work and do it well.
It's the same with interpersonal relationships too. My mother just hang's up on me when I call her and I an not invited to any of the family social gatherings. I haven't been on a date since 2006 because I am "the wrong religion" as well. Also people pretend not to see me when I say "hi" on the street.
I am tired of always being alone, but can't afford to move. I put my house on the market last year and got half of all showings in my town; two!!! Until the local economy changes, I'm stuck.
I don't go around advertising my religion, I just don't attend worship services along with my neighbors. All of them have invited me to attend back in 2002 when I first moved in and I declined stating that I was a member of a different religion. After that word got around and now no one will give me the time of day.
I was able to cope alright until about 2010, but since then it's got increasingly harder. I like it when I get sent to California for work because no one cares what religion I am; in fact no one has even asked, so I doubt they know. But, I hate California; I need rain and snow.
I used to talk to my cat, but he died in January. Since then I haven't spoken a word that isn't related to commerce or work. I am so alone, please help.
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