............at myself my parents, my Dr's my cowardly behaviour. I feel really sorry for myself so much so I feel as if my head is going to explode.

Dramatic I know BUT ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Not sure what to do with myself at the moment.