<font color="#000088"> It seems to me that you are like I used to be. That you have this wall up that you can't even get through anymore,because it's been up for so long that you don't even want to see behind it anymore.
But Maybe your B/F can see behind it,and that could be why he likes you,because he knows the real you that's behind that wall.

It's not too late,because my wall has been coming down a little at a time,as I've gotten older,and found people I could trust that weren't out to harm me. It took awhile,but it's a slow process,and my wall is still there but in pieces where I can allow certain people in,and the abusive one's out.

Don't give up,there is always room for change.I'm still working on it myself. </font>