I hate that what I just wrote is apart of schizophrenia. I NEED people to help me with taking care of myself because I told my pdoc that I'm starting to not care anymore. Then I think the complete opposite.

There will be war.

I want to leave. This isn't a palace when I've been here for two months. It's prison. They get *****y when I don't go to a group and rub it in my face. **** you! It's NOT in my control. The nurses rub it in my face. They hate their jobs and act like it too.

Also, sorry to hear about your mom blue bird. I can only guess how you feel and even that is ten times less.