It's actually me that keeps putting off meeting. He has wanted to meet for months. I'm not sure why I've put it off for so long. I even told him I didn't want to meet until June. Maybe because I'm really stressed out with things going on in my life, maybe because I don't feel well/am depressed. Part of it is that I keep going back and fourth about if I even want to meet him.

I know, I can't believe I'm in this position.