Hopefully for us both, that black and white state shifts back to light gray soon. I hate feeling disconnected from T. I don't know about you, but I start to get panicky that I have to fix it NOW.

Has your T ever been willing to talk about how you see yourself physically? With some T's I feel like there are certain subjects they are not interested in touching but i don't know why. I can't remember if your T ever had a eating disorder? I just remember how slim you said she was.