Greetings.

I am experiencing anger / anxiety feeling to let go of my previous
relationship and move on to the next step, I wonder if you can share
your thoughts on dealing with anger feelings.

I know the best thing to do is to forgive this man who hurt me
emotionally, I also need to forgive myself for putting myself in that
situation and did not leave earlier..

Here are the thoughts / events:

-I have dated with man for over 2 and a half years, I was never
invited to his apartment, when I eventually showed up at place to
work out the issues, he called the police to get me out of his
apartment parking lot.

-Whatever he told his employer about our relationship, his employer
told me they would call the police if I call this man at work.

- In spite of the police involvement, which he ended up taking me
home, we sort of got back to each other three weeks later; he did not
feel comfortalbe of letting his roommate (cousin) and employer know
that we were back to each other's life. That hurt my self-image, and
self-worth, and thus, trigged major episodes of depressions.

-I helped this man and his cousin on immigration applications, as the
result, he received U.S. citizenship, and the cousin, received
permanant residency.

- When I had my episodes of depression, I had trouble eating, I
stayed in bed several days, and when I called him for help ( I also
called crisis line), he hanged up on me, and changed the phone
number.

I am grateful I made it out of the depression and am able to eat
normally again. I just don't understand how a person can walk away
from a desperate cry for help, I almost died at that time. Even a
strager from crisis line / church offer help, why a man I was
involved over 2 and 1/2 years, the one I help him to get his
citizenship, would to be cruel and chose to let me die, with the
knowledge I have no one else to help me / bring me food...

I know Carolyn Myss mentioned the task is to focus on one became
stronger because what happened, not to ask why it happened...

I just want to calm my emotions. I am willing to forgive, for my own
sake.

Thank you.

JJ