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Old Apr 14, 2015, 10:57 PM
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Originally Posted by lolagrace View Post
My gut reaction is that it isn't your T you didn't seem connected with. You seem very disconnected from yourself from what you wrote.
You're usually right about me but I'm not sure what you mean. How can someone be disconnected from themselves? Thank you, Lola.

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Originally Posted by growlycat View Post
Hopefully for us both, that black and white state shifts back to light gray soon. I hate feeling disconnected from T. I don't know about you, but I start to get panicky that I have to fix it NOW.

Has your T ever been willing to talk about how you see yourself physically? With some T's I feel like there are certain subjects they are not interested in touching but i don't know why. I can't remember if your T ever had a eating disorder? I just remember how slim you said she was.
Thanks, growly. Yes, I panic. That's why I emailed my T twice and sent photos right after my session. I want to fix it now, just like you said. She might not answer me until Thursday but I wanted to explain how I felt. I can't do the "sit with your feelings" thing.

No, my T told me once that she doesn't have an ED. She's just thin. If I lost 25 or 30 pounds I'd be at a good weight, but I can't do it.

It makes me feel vulnerable to talk about it with my T.
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growlycat
Thanks for this!
growlycat