90% of the time I am fine no problem, my spouse seems to know how to push my right buttons and she is never wrong, it's always my fault. Well generally I can avoid an argument but some times I lose it and all hell breaks loose. We have twins a boy and girl 10 years old and I feel she is trying to turn them against me. We don't get along as well as we use to when they were younger. They pull away from me and don't always talk to me and that hurts me. When i bring this issue up with my spouse she immediately blames me. I asked her why she has to act this way in front of the kids. Why doesn't she try to support me some times and help me get closer to the kids. She secretly records our argument hoping to catch me in rage. She plays head games with me.

I'm on lamactal (just started it) welbutin and klonopin and as I said I am usually just fine! I get no emotional support from her. She calls my requests pity parties. I am at the end of my rope. I don't know what else to do. My children are my life without them I really don't care what happens to me. I feel she is pushing me deliberately to my limit.

Any advice would be appreciated.