Ah the human mind and the way it works, holding back memories you never knew you had until you are ready to take it, or at least i was lucky enough for this to happen, would have been luckier if the memories never came back... but you can't control everything your mind does.

(Possible trigger after this point) (don't know how to put the trigger box around it so you can open it if you wish to read it so warning) (the next paragraph has the triggering things in it so dont read that if you will be triggered)

It has been 2 years since I left my father and i'm both remembering some of the things that happened and realized that it was abuse. I should mention that my parents have been divorced since i was born and my mother took me away from my father for the reasons i now know. but when i was about 11 my father found us so me and my sister started going to his place again. the first year not much happened to me but my sister did leave after the first year (wish i followed) and after that everything went downhill and he started blaming me for my sister leaving and refusing to come back, that is when he started verbally abusing me through insults and cursing, after about a year he started to hit me for the dumbest things for example not walking fast enough, I don't quite remember everything past this point (dam brain and your ways) the next thing i remember is the last few weeks before i left him, this all took place in about 3-4 years.

Thank you for reading i just needed to get what i have remembered off my chest so I can start learning to cope with it, and does anyone have any recommendations for remembering what i still don't remember, or should i let my mind tell me as it pleases. Again thank you for reading hope you have great day, and good luck with your life.