We have been to counseling together, our counselor told me he did not want to see her any more. Then she found a female counseler and convinced her I was abusive towards her and she became totally biased. The only reason I stay in this relationship is because I love my kids and I don't want to see another man raise them or try to be their father. I am their father! But frankly we have exhausted every channel and I fear this will end ugly. I am hoping to hang in there for 6 more years. The kids will be 16. They won't really want any part of either of us at that age. I dunno if I can make it that long. I fear either I will hurt her or myself one of these days she pushes me too far. For a intelligent woman she is pretty stupid in pushing me too far. Thank you for your support, or as the ***** would call it, my pity party.