He probably is a creep.

I don't know why I've been hanging on for so long. Maybe it's because I've been too tired and depressed to go out into the real world (luckily my doctor finally did something and changed my medication) and I don't want to form any more online connections. I guess part of me can't recognize that there are better people out there to form connections in general with than this guy. I'm so used to talking to him, and he kind of got me started doing this because I felt sympathetic towards him and thought it was interesting how he was sharing his life story with me . A lot of it I believe, but there are other things (he claimed that he got hit by a car, which I'm not sure is true or not) that I have no idea about. And when I spoke to him on the phone he spoke so fast he barely gave me a chance to talk. And his spelling is horrible. He spells "to" as "too" all of the time and it drives me insane (I'm not trying to be arrogant or anything, but he doesn't have the same level of education that I have). When I first met him, he sent me some of his rap songs that he recorded himself (which sounded really cheap and I hated but said were good). What is my problem? Do I just have really low self-esteem or something after being by myself for so long? The thought that I would be settling has crossed my mind so many times, yet I don't want to be someone who doesn't connect to
others because of differences that are insignificant. Even he told me that he thinks I'm too good for him, which I don't necessarily agree
with, but we are quite different. I know that my family wouldn't be too happy about this either. I've kept it from them, even though I'm an
adult and can be with who I want. Maybe I'm embarrassed of him.