I haven't for about a year. Lately, though, I've been having dreams and thoughts of it. I'm struggling a lot right now and I don't really know what to do.

At the moment, self harming seems like the only way to help me cope.. I know there are better ways but this seems like the only way to me. But I know if I did self harm my boyfriend would be heart broken and pissed with me, which just makes me feel trapped and even worse.