Thank you for the warm welcomes.

I don't really know what my next steps should be. I know I should probably get better, but sometimes I also just feel that I should accept that I have major faults.

We have done couples counseling. The counselor is actually quite good (the only one I've ever seen, so nothing else to compare to). I have seen her by myself and mostly talked about work stress. I didn't feel comfortable telling her about the sex issue since she knows both of us now.