Lola or anyone. Can you explain what the above means? I feel frustrated and overwhelmed with stuff in my life I have to deal with. I need structure but I don't have it. I feel incapable of action. How does that make me disconnected from myself? I also feel like my T didn't help me yesterday. She let me flounder around. She did say "You're awfully hard on yourself." She also said its okay to feel sad when I had to let go of her hand. She said that since I felt good on my trip, why don't I stay in vacation mode. That's stupid. I'm home now and have a house that's full of clutter.