(((Pinksoil)))

What a trooper! My God, you managed to drive your car, go to the store, and speak to T? Admidst all that anxiety/panic?

You are nothing short of amazing, IMO.

Please don't be so hard on yourself, you are so deserving of as much love as you need! Let Pdoc keep working out the med situation and try to have faith that eventually he will get it right. I know it sounds like platitudes but there is a solution for you out there, but you are very sensitive and as long as he is willing to keep working with you, I bet the right med/combination of meds will be found.

I'm so glad that T has made himself so available and that you will have a mini-session tomorrow. I bet once you see him, you will be glad?

Pink, I truly don't see you as a loser. I see you as someone who works tremendously hard, is smart, ambitious and impatient with herself! Hmmmm, reminds me of smoeone else I know Only, when I was your age, I didn't have the self-awareness you have. So, you are ahead of the game!

I know, you need to write a poem about this..........can't wait to read it.

Be good to yourself. Baby yourself, tea, baths, whatever it takes. Better yet, let your hubby baby you. You know, this too shall pass.

Lots of hugs.