Feeling a hell of a lot better since the 400mg injection yesterday.

Had a really good appointment with my psychiatrist. As honest as I could be or try to be, he still knew that I still have a bit of negative symptoms and said that the worst part of the illness is stopping the meds when I think I'm fine. I tried to fight it but it just takes over and insight is gone.

I'm in a good mood again.. so ya ill show the mood chart that I made over the last 12 days. I stopped one day because the anhedonia was too bad. It looks like an increase of torture every day by seeing the chart go down.

I bought 8 packs of 25 cigarettes and was smoking like a pack a day. I was giving a lot away too maybe a pack. Now I have 5 cigs left. I'm leaving it at 5 until I'm discharged and I wont be taking NRT. I'll throw the cigarettes away (Because people chose to smoke and knew the consequences so I'm not going to give them away but give the option to quit or keep bumming cigs because they're that addicted which is doing a favour. Nah. It's boring in this hospital and I was doing it too when I came so I'd be a hypocrite). If I do smoke some let alone NRT or buying another carton, there's a problem.

But I'll definitely smoke my last Cuban cigar from the 80 dollar pack that my dad gave me when I'm discharged to show my dad that I wont get hooked by doing it sooner and as a nice celebration that I don't have to be in this place anymore!