Thank you for all sharing!
Elkino you asked
So, how did it go for you? How did your T react? And what was your reaction to that?

I know I often talk about my past without much emotion and I have found myself telling T something and then I say "yea that sounds ****ed up" and T would kinda chuckle and agree.
This time I was just getting it all out and then looked up and T had this shocked/horrified look on their face. I said without thinking "oh your face" lol. T was very good, T and I have a strong relationship and I know that there is deep care for me. I didn't feel judged etc.
I did feel weird - like these events seemed normal (they are not normal) in my life, but T was reacting like they were not normal.
I guess the relationship with T, and their care for me, and their reaction made me sad. Sad that of all the people in my lifetime it is T that cares the most.
Then there is the confrontation of my own self - that these events were not normal, they were horrible and cruel. If I am to accept that line of thinking, which T demonstrated, I have to then feel the feelings of it.

T and I talked about their reaction to it. T said that they usually can't contain their own emotions but sometimes it comes out, and it comes out of the empathy and care part.

I guess it's just weird to see someone react to something in your life you have come to file away as normalish.